Friday December 28, 2007

Dear Little Red Snake, Sorry for my late Christmas letter to you. Hoped that in the festivities of His birthday you might not have noticed. But then you always noticed everything about me. Your city was beautiful it is too bad about the coal pollution though, As we visited all the conventional have too see places I could not help but wonder how many times I was standing in the same places you had stood! Surely you had made many visits to the Muslim Market walked those narrow alleys brimming with wares and foods. And the Terracotta Soldiers Exhibit how often had you been there? Quite different in its presentation now though. I wonder did you ever see the outdoor play there of Romeo and Juliet? As you are quite aware Ling and I had some very serious clashes of personalities while we were there and I think if it were not for our church friends we went with helping out with an intervention things could have gotten much worse then they did but with the Lords grace and understanding of us and our weaknesses we got thru the difficulties and actually grew thru it all to be better partners in this marriage. I received a Christmas letter from Yuchen and PICTURES this time! She has grown into a beautiful woman. You had a handsome husband in her father and she has inherited his best attributes. It does not hurt to have a classical beauty of a mother either but I think she takes more after her father. She is so completely given over to the Lord that her letters abound with her Praise and Love of Him. I would not be surprised if she ended up going into some form of missions career after graduation she has that fire in her of wanting to spread the Good News! I have a favor to ask of you again. As you know we have been praying for Justin and his battle with alcohol addiction. I was hoping that there might be something you could do from your side to help him see the futility of trying to do this all on his own and open his heart to Christ as the answer we know he needs now. He has tremendous anger and fear in his life now and can see no way out of it. He is a good kid and there is much he could do with his life if the Lord should choose to intervene in it. Thank you darling for all and any that you do. I continue think of you daily it seems to be the one constant in my life. I never cease to miss you and long for you back again. I will continue on though for it is only His calling that can reunite us and I await it. With all my love and thoughts. Your Redbull

Charles

Monday August 13, 2007

HAPPY BIRTHDAY My Dear Hong, Hope your party was fun. I hope I was there with you. At least in spirit. Great news I heard from Yuchen she is up in Montreal with Aunt Lily now. She even hinted that she might come and visit us in the future. Can't wait to take her to our church. Get this when she was in Atlanta this summer she actually met the daughter of our Mandarin Pastor. But then you can see this is a small world can't you. Hope this can all work out for next year. We leave for China next week pray for many miracles to take place on it. You will be on my mind even more when we get to your city. Please be with me there could you. Till we return my love.

Friday July 20, 2007

Hello Dear Little Red Snake, The terrible day has come and gone again.I was able to put up your cross at the site for about three hours that morning so at least all those going into the city for work saw it and know people still remember. I have put it up at the house again but I think only for a week this year as I know it troubles Ling. I am going to see if I can rent time on a billboard at the site for the future.Then I can put up your site info in larger type so people can actually read it going 70mph. We are half way thru the time I have the rights to this site. I was hoping for more to come to know you by now. I will try to improve on the situation. I will send Yuchen her birthday card here soon and will just put down a few words to her and hope she writes back I guess. I do so long for contact with your family again. When the Lord deems it so! I carry on here only to be able to see that again someday. My Love With You Always, Redbull

Wednesday July 11, 2007

Hello Dear, It has been awhile since I have written you but I know you hear me talking to you all the time. It has been 5 years now since we parted and I am amazed at how fresh everything still is in my mind and heart. I think time has no effect on such loss as I feel for you. I am sad to say that there has been virtually no contact with any of your family so I really don’t know how things are with them. I am sure Yuchen is busy as ever, can not believe she turns 20 next month I really miss seeing her. I also miss Jenny and Bill and I think it is the hardest on Jenny to deal at all with me. I should pray more about that. As you know we are going to your city, Xian, in September I think the 7th. I’m a little concerned how that will affect me. I would like to go to your University and stand outside with a sign asking if anyone knew you there when you were teaching. There must still be co workers there even after 7 years but I would have to have Ling translate for me and I don’t think that would go over well. She has mentioned to Don and Cathy that she feels she isn’t number 1 in my heart and does not feel that is fair. I understand her situation but my heart is what it is and that is only something the Lord can change. He put you so deeply into me I don’t think anyone could knock you out. Can you cheat on someone with the spirit of another? Well as you know this is always a hard time frame for me to move through every year. We were all so excited leaving the house to start our trip on the 9th 5 years ago. We had such hope of a lifetime together. Not to be, not to be. But the good Lord provided for all you left behind and we will all be back together as His mercy allows. I will continue to pray for the rest of your familys conversion. I will leave you now but my heart stays in your love, Charles

nadalia Megahunts@safe-mail.net

Thursday June 28, 2007

I am really excited. I found lots of intresting things here. It very impressive. :-)

Charles

Saturday April 21, 2007

Hello My Dear One, This is the 5th annv of your commitment to move here and live with me. I still vividly recall watching you walk down the concourse at the airport in your beautiful white outfit. It was like watching an angel in the midst of the crowd. As if you were spot lighted. How pleased I was with your reception of our house even in its unconstructed condition. You were always so understanding. I will have you all to myself for almost six weeks till you return to be with Yuchen for her summer break and prepare her for her move here. Oh what promise and hope we held in our hearts during this time. Always remembered , always missed. The greatest joy in my life was this period. Never to return in this life I fear. Thinking of you endlessly. Loving thoughts of you my Little Red Snake

Charles

Wednesday March 07, 2007

Hello My Tender Love, Five years this month since we made contact with each other thru email on the 3rd and 5th and your first call to me on the 8th. I want it back honey! I want it all back again! I know it is so selfish of me to even hope for such things but my heart aches so for you. It is so hard this waiting to die! What's the point of my continued existance here? Am I really of any further use to Ling without love for her? She would surely be better off without me. I am so short with her in her attempts to make this all work out. I have given her all that I seem to have left in emotions. Which wasn't much and I know not enough. She is still a pale 2nd to you for my heart and she is deserving of so much more. Maybe I did her no favors by marrying her and bringing her here. God how I want to DIE! But it's not allowed, not allowed. I am left with nothing here in this life. Sorry honey that I am sounding like such a pitiful loser but I need to express these feelings somewhere. I hold out with one great hope that He would be so compassionate as to take me home when I am visiting your home in Xian this summer. Wouldn't that be appropriate? His call I know but maybe you could influence Him in someway. He told those who asked Him about marriage in heaven that there is no such thing. That we will know one another from our earthly lives but no one will have SPECIAL rights to our hearts but Him and the Father and that we will have the same equale love for every brother and sister in Christ. This does sound right to my mind and it is what I would think heaven should be like to be able to love all as He showed me love for you. But like so much thought of heaven it seems unfathomable to my heart that you would not be my most special love. More and more since your passing I feel that the love I hold for you should be the love I hold for Christ. That the love of Him should be over our love for all others. Once again I sin in my heart as I can not seperate you two from another. I guess that was what I fell in love with so quickly was the perfection of Christ in you. And that was what made you love me your ability to love an imperfect sinner! I pray that you have retained that capability as I continue to wrestle with my sins here. Forgive me!

Redbull

Sunday February 18, 2007

Happy New Year my Little Red Snake, Hope you had a wonderful celebration. We have gone to several shows all were good. But no puts on a celebration like the Lord does. Wish I could have been at His with you darling. Maybe next year. Sure do miss you my love but with each passing year I know I am getting closer to you and my Lord. I must be paitence for He is not done with me yet I have much to learn. I await His calling home. Love you

bride ivan@susanin.com

Tuesday February 06, 2007

Cool site. Thank you for your nice site!

Charles

Tuesday January 09, 2007

Dearest, It has been another year since you graced these shores my Love. Four years ago yesterday. Sorry for the day delay but the site was jammed up with spam again. Will never understand that! Heard from Jenny and Bill again that was great. Hope we can continue with more. What do you think good or bad idea? I know it is greedy of me. Hope the spammers back off so we can continue our rememberence of you. Love Bless