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Charles To my Dearest Hong, Two years, two of the longest years of my life and here we find ourselves reliving it all over again. Some how it never seems real, that it could have happened to us. I know I don’t find myself visiting your site as often as in the past but you never leave my mind or heart. I think not feeling the need to visit is, to some degree, a sign of healing. I have to heal darling if I am ever to be fair with Ling and I know that you understand this. I could not put up your memorial at the accident site this year but for a good reason as they are building the overpass there now. Good is still coming from our loss my love and soon no one will ever have to cross that highway at that intersection again. Glory is to God. I have put up your cross and banner at the house instead, it keeps you closer that way. I will travel to your memorial site and visit with Yu-chen and Jenny over your birthday again this year. I so look forward those visits with them, I feel I am with you at those times. Yu-chen is doing so wonderful with her life she is a living tribute to your loving up bringing. She carries on so many of your good traits. I will write to you again after the visit. I continue to pray for Father and Mother and sister Lilly in the hopes of there salvation. I know you are working hard to help them find Him also. Till next time my Little Red Snake, Redbull /p> Redbull My Sweet Hong, It has been quite a long time since I’ve written you my dearest. But that doesn’t mean I ever stop thinking about you, us, what we missed out on. That tragic day is here again tomorrow my love, tragic for those of us that were left behind but a glorious day for you, a day of joy and celebration as you were able to go home to our loving Lord. I am glad that I am not as drawn to this site as I was at first. I think it is a sign of healing for me, adjustment maybe is a better term. As much of a hole as is in my life with your loss, I must now be fair to Ling my darling, she will be here soon, God willing, and I need to devote myself to her needs. I know that you understand and support me on this decision. I was not able to put your memorial up at the crash site this year but you know for good reasons as the state is building the overpass bridge I so wished had been there for us. So good is still developing from our sad loss and soon no one will ever have to cross that highway there again. I have put up your banner and cross at the house instead this year. There is a young girl at church who is a ballet dancer and as I watched her enter with the congregation today I noticed how she glided into the room like you use to, so light on the feet like you were floating on air. Then also today I went to the Dragon Boat races at the park and there was a Chinese dance troupe there dancing with the fans and cloths like you use to dance. So much of you came back to me today but I am stronger now and could hold the sadness inside. You know well Yu-chen is doing she has your strength and determination and seems to have your strong will to always do the best she can do at all she does at school. I just wish the Lord would let her get her visa situation settled. I know He has His time and plan and it is not my place to hurry Him I just wish she would be able to see your Father and Mother soon. I can only continue to pray on this and I know you know what the results are going to be so you are not anxious. I will go to visit with Jenny and Bill over your birthday next month I hope you will join with us in your own way. I will write to you when I return and share with you the joys of the visit. My love for you is forever, Charles ashanka charles Dear Little Red Snake, Sorry for taking so long to write since I visited Yu-Chen and Jenny. You must be brimming with pride over Yu-Chen and how well she is doing. We could only wish the rest of your family and friends were doing as well. She has a very good grasp on her faith and it has made an immense change in her. I know I am very proud of her and you of course in your up bringing of her. I brought down the two pieces of paper work that the Lord used to show His love for us. I was hoping that Jenny might be able to let go of the guilt she carries over all that took place but I think I am rushing things and what was important was for me to give my testimony to them and then let the Holy Spirit do the rest. You know this better then any of us do now don’t you. It was a great visit and a wonderful time spent with them I look forward to the next. Yu-Chen even translated for me with Ling, I am anxious for them all to meet the next time I go down. I love them all now and they are all a part of me. I will write again sooner then later this time. Always loving and missing you, Charles charles My Dearest Hong, Even though this letter comes at the end of our first meeting it was never forgotten my love. Two years have passed since that time, two years closer to being with you once more. The Lord has taught me sooooooooooo much in that time. Shown me grace and comfort. Rekindled my desire to love once again but not in such a love that we shared. We are all still praying for Yu-Chen’s visa completion so she may visit your parents. We wait patiently for God to choose the proper moment. He is taking such good care of her thru Bill and Jenny I know how this pleases you. I will re-visit the pictures we took while I was down to visit you maybe someday I will even be able to watch the video’s again. It is still too hard to do yet. To see images of you so full of life and joy and to hear that tender voice again it’s just too much yet. I miss you terribly and so long to see you again. Charles Charles Dear Hong, This is the second anniversary of our meeting. Two years ago our Lord brought us together for His needs and ours, I can not help but wonder where we would be at this point in our lives if He had had different plans for us. I would hope the house would have been done by now and we would most likely be going to China this year to visit your family. My longing for you has not diminished and hopes of being with you again are as strong as ever on this day. I continue to wait patiently for that time to come as each passing day brings us closer to our reunion in His house. Love, Charles Charles Dear Hong, It has been along time since I have written you but I know you understand. Thank you and the Lord for allowing you to contact me again. You two bring such comfort to me. As you know Jenny has returned from visiting MaMa and PaPa I hope you were able to console them thru her. I have not heard from her yet in regards to the trip I should give them a call this weekend and find out. I would like to go down and visit with them again so I might show them your latest sign. Maybe next month around our anniversary if the back is better. It seems to have reached a period of non-change. Don’t know if that is the norm or not I need to see the doctor and ask I guess. Clara and I went to a wedding last Saturday and there was a Korean girl there Yu-Chen’s age that could have been her twin. Thought a lot about you that day since we were in Fairmont and that was our last stop before the accident. Can you believe how long the court is taking with my case to finish? Plan and purpose, I have to trust that it is what He wants it to be, everything in it’s own time huh? I grow more anxious to be with you and to know how you are serving the Lord. I hope my life is pleasing to Him and you. I am sorry for my shortcomings I will try and do better. I enjoy the company of my brothers and sisters at church sooooooo much and they do inspire me but I still have so many questions. I know that my Lord Jesus is working very hard in my life and I do pray that I am interpreting His wisdom correctly. There are many things that I am reading in His good book that seem to be different then what I think He is telling me. It gets to be confusing I try and sort it all out by basing it all on His love for us and ours for Him I think that is the best way for me to understand how I should be conducting my life. Things are going well with Ling I think she will accept Christ as you did and I hope that it will be soon enough that we can be married at the church. You know the situation I am in over this issue and I feel I am doing the right thing about it but it would sure be more comforting to find her wanting to be baptized first. I continue to ask for your assistance in any way the Lord will allow you to give it. You are forever in my heart and mind my Little Red Snake, Charles
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