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Charles My Dear Hong, Merry Christmas my love. Your Loveing Red Bull charles My most Precious One, We have had problems with this portion of your site but we think we have them fixed now. I hope others will leave messages for you now that it is fixed and I apoligize to all those who may have been frustated over this. Dec. 4th was an eventfull day for me as it marked the period that you have been gone from my touch longer then we knew each other. The first 137 days went by like a whirlwind from Heaven the last like the drudgery of Hell. I would like to be able to tell you that the grief and sadness has subsided but I fear it has not for any of us. You meant sooooooooooo much to everyone you touched in this life. I don't think there will ever be any getting over our loss. Christmas is just around the corner here for us I hope Jesus will understand the suppression of Merry in my observance this year. You know darling all I wanted to do was bring happiness and love into Yu-Chen and your lives instead I fear I have left a legacy that is to be a curse to your family and I hate myself for that fact. You are the only one with the answers to this living hell I've created I wish that you would be allowed to explain them to me. But I know I have no right to that and must wait for our Lord to enlighten me in the end days. I am not seeking sympathy I just want understanding as to what I'm feeling about all these emotions that race thru my heart and mind since that horrible day. I wish you could tell me what you want me to do now. All I wished was to please you with my actions when you were here and I don't want to displease you now.I know I can not help your families hearts what with the circumstances as they are at this time and I feel horrible over this especially over Yu-Chen hurting. So all I have is to send monetary help and that is what I will do. You can see in my heart completely now my love and you know I wish only to someday be able to share with your family my love for you and memories of you. With time maybe this will take place. I will pray for it. I still wait for you to come to me in my dreams, just one more mystery to try and understand in all this, how can I not dream about the most beloved of my life? It helps to talk to you in this it is like when we first met and were only e-mailing each other and for a moment we are together again.I so yearn for the day when I will be allowed to come home to you again. Till then I pray for you and your family.Wo Ai Ni, Wo Xiang Ni my Little Snake. Your Loving Red Bull Red Bull My dear little Red Snake, It is so hard living here without your presence. I still think I will wake up and we will be in Mitchel,SD just getting ready to leave on that fatefull day to return to our home. I do pray my love that the Lord will provide this gift to us. To be given a second chance at living out our lives fully with each other, watching Yu-Chen grow and realizing all her dreams, traveling to visit your beloved homeland and parents, to meet Lilly and her family in Canada. Just to have those twilight years together. I would gladly except this as my Heaven. To repeat over and over for eternity with you. I try to be strong for you passing thru each day knowing I'm one day closer to seeing you again. I wish that you would come to me in my dreams but I realize you must be very busy with your family. Maybe later on you can visit me. I hope others will feel free to talk to you thru this medium or to at least express their feelings here. I love you soooooooooooooooooo much and can't wait to be reunited with you. Thank you for being, your Red Bull
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